When my wife first died, I was having some anger issues. I had asked God to teach me patience and wow, has he ever.
He sent me to the Poles! I don't know if that was supposed to be some kind of joke but I will say, dealing the Poles I posted about in my post of August 6th has really tested my patience.
Through culture clash, I have come under scrutiny. I thought I had it sorted out but apparently not. I had sent them a Christmas Card as well as a small gift to the owner of the band. I had emailed them and asked them to let me know when the items arrived, I KNOW they have them but so far all I have heard are the "Crickets"
I realise there is some controversy surrounding me. HOWEVER, I have broken NO laws, American, Polish, or any of God's Laws for that matter! When I go to bed at night, I can lie down, roll over, and go to sleep with a perfectly clear conscience. I know it's a bit offish to desire to talk to someone who is much younger but then again, it is normal for older people to want to pass along their knowledge, Lore and Wisdom. Ask any Psychologist! To be Honest, I would like to be able to treat these kids like the Grandchildren I know I will never have.
In conclusion, All I can do is keep my nose clean and maintain the distance I have been maintaining. I have no idea where they get the idea from that I can do physical harm [if I wanted to, which I don't] from over 7000 Kilometers away!
As Peter asked Jesus "How many times must I forgive my brother? 7?" and Jesus replied," NO, you must fogive him 7 x 70 times" Right now, this group is up to 5 times! (Matthew 18:22).
I just wish that we could have a video conference and sort things out, I know for the next month or so that will not be possible but there is always a ray of hope. I have told tem on several occassions, "I would much rather be your freind and staunch supporter than your enemy" BUT" they seem to have villified me.
I pray daily for resolution.
Terry
PS Any chat with a minor [If they want to] would have to be a video chat. I MUST see there is parental permission and supervision. THIS IS NOT NEGOTIABLE! I have to protect myself as well. As a former Scout Leader, the one thing I would never do is go behind a parents back!
One more thing. I can understand upset if I had done something wrong. The thing is,
I HAVE NOT!
